Whew!

What a day. Woke up WIDE awake @ 4:30, and my parents were already awake too. Something about daylight savings got to us all apparently. I registered for class, then went to the gym. Came home, got ready, went to advising, then class, went home & ate, took a nap, and have been at work ever since. I really don't know what to do about school next semester. I need to just move to Pocatello for the semester, but that would take a TON of support from outside sources. Soooo....I dunno. This is pretty much my last big "push" semester. If I just buckle down & pass the 5 classes I need, I will only have 4 more classes to go. FOUR! It seriously gives me butterflies just thinking about how close I am. If I do move, the problem is, what about Damien? I'm down with staying in Poky M-F coming home sat sun, so I'd just see him on the weekends. However..........

Yeah. I'm kinda tempted to just sink my loans into an apartment & daycare, move D and I to Poky, give Idaho Falls the bird and say "see ya in four months."

However..........

I hate it when no choice is the easy choice, or "right" choice, especially when I do something in good faith & it totally screws me over.

Sigh.

I don't know what to do: I feel like I am worthless, incapable of success, & so weighted down by debt that there is no way I'll ever be out of the red......gargh.

I have two months to decide/come up with a great plan. I just hate not knowing where I'm headed, and what's going to happen, and knowing that I will have to come up with the plan makes me worry about it incessently until I come up with one. Hence this blog, lol. Gonna go browse some fitness sights or something to try and distract myself, and kill the last 1.5 I have left at work.

Until next time-





(ps) My goal this week is to not eat past 7pm and to workout everyday. Really wanna see some results by the end of the year! Must quit making excuses & just FUCKING DO IT!

love.